As I sit here, I don't know what to think. I guess you could say that I'm feeling a little down tonight. It probably sounds dumb, but I'm frustrated that I never get asked out on dates. Yes, I know that I've only been home for a little over 3 months and don't really know anyone yet. But when I go dancing I never get asked to dance either, or at least rarely. And I've got friends who rarely aren't dancing. Really, I want nothing more in my life than to be able to have a family. But right now, that's the thing furthest from my grasp. How am I supposed to fall in love and get married if no one turns his head twice? Okay, okay. I admit...I'm not exactly doing much to try to attract boys either. I don't have time. But honestly, if one were to ask me, I'd make time. Seriously boys. Let's follow the counsel of the Prophet and ask me out so that you can eventually get married too. And it would surely help a girl's self-esteem.
This is something that has always frustrated me. I have gone through semester after semester of roommates going on dates, and me staying home or going dancing alone on Friday nights. All that has brought with it is frustration and hurt. Or, even if roommates do go dancing with me I stand alone while they dance. I am an introverted person, and I rarely step out of my comfort zone to ask a guy to dance. That is one of the few things about me that didn't change. But I was really hoping that something would change this semester: I was hoping that I would be able to go on dates. Now, I realize that we are still early in the semester, but with each day that passes, the more cynical I tend to get in my head toward boys. I know that sounds ridiculous and irrational. It probably is. Okay. It is irrational. But it really is hard on the way a girl sees herself when she never, ever gets to go on dates. I'm not looking for a relationship. I just want to have fun. Get to know some people. Is that so much to ask?
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